March 15. One year ago yesterday we listed our house, not knowing how long it would take to sell it. In two days, we’ll be able to say, “One year ago today, the Lord sold our house!” We had made many preparations to sell the home we’d owned for a decade, but the actual selling of it meant we really were moving across the country. It was the beginning of the end of our time in Texas, but also the beginning of a new adventure.
When I consider that a new family has been doing life in “our” house for almost a year, it twists my mind a bit. But then my alarm clock beeps when the sun has yet to rise, and I remember that it’s not our house any longer. I amble through our apartment, assembling myself for a day with ten students at a private school that meets in an historic church. No, we are definitely not in Texas anymore. That is most obvious to me in that the places I frequent aren’t yet places where “everybody knows my name.” (Not that I would expect this, but I do notice that I am a bit forlorn and desire to spend more time building relationships.)
See, I want the deep authenticity of regular, extended Christian fellowship. I crave it. But for me, the most challenging part of our move has been my own introversion, in part because it directly works against the building of relationships. I didn’t know this, though, until well into February, when the Lord saw fit to shed light what lies beneath it. From my journal on February 15, 2014:
At the surface, my introversion is part of how the Lord designed me; I simply need alone time to regain energy and strength. While this is His perfect intention for me, it is marred by my own sinful nature. Recently the Lord revealed that my introversion (as it currently manifests) is rooted in a desire for control. I profess with my mouth that God is sovereign, but functionally I live quite differently. But to what end? What is being threatened such that I need to approach life (and God?) with a clenched fist? Today, in His grace, the Lord showed me the root of the problem: I serve an idol of comfort, ease, and simplicity. But I am not entitled to any of these things! Lord, slay this idol in my heart!
Because I am a visual learner, the Lord often gives me word pictures or mental images that help me to see what He wants me to learn. This time He chose an iceberg.
Because I had lived in Texas for 30 years, I had settled into relationships that were, for the most part, comfortable, comforting, easy, and simple. Of course we had hiccups along the way, but from my perspective my close friendships were all of these things because we had a history together. I didn’t have to explain why my immune system is compromised. I knew the best way to love each friend in Christ, and I often felt the love of Christ through and from my dear sisters. We spent time — close, heartfelt, honest time — and in that the Lord knit our hearts together in a way that was (and remains) almost tangibly eternal.
As an introvert, the thought of starting from scratch here is really challenging to my heart! And it’s true: My idol of comfort, ease, and simplicity demands slothfulness in every area, but especially in building Christ-centered relationships. This is why it is so crucial that I allow the Lord to eradicate this idol! In just over two months I will be faced with a summer full of free time. How will I use it? Of course I will tend to my home, because a school year never does anything positive for my homemaking skills. I will spend plenty of time with my sweet husband since this semester has felt like a wild amusement park ride. But, in the Lord’s strength, I will lay down the shackles of this idol and spend a lot of time investing in the lives of my new (beautiful, wonderful, amazing!) friends.
Soli Deo gloria!
Evan and I finally took a spell to sit and reflect on the entirety of the holiday season. This proved to be a helpful step in removing my eyes from my (ever-decreasing) overwhelmed state, and to the blessings bestowed upon us by our loving Heavenly Father. I thought we should share these things with you, too, so you don’t think I’m crying in a corner all the time (which I’m not). 🙂
Since our last post, Evan finished his very first semester at Southern,
we had fun in our first good snow,
celebrated a very happy Thanksgiving with Evan’s parents,
visited the Louisville Slugger Museum,
celebrated our first Christmas in Louisville with a visit to the Creation Museum (followed by a short jaunt into Cincinnati),
a candlelight service at our church, and dinner at the seminary. Fun fact: We, along with one other couple, sat with Dr. & Mrs. Mohler! It was fun to get to know a little bit more about them.
Another huge blessing for Evan was his week-long J-term class that happened the week before Christmas. Through this class, Evan was able to meet men who are in a station similar to his own: they are shifting their focus from their established careers to pursue full-time ministry. It was a very encouraging week for him!
Please Pray with Us
- that our break would be a time of intense rest and renewal, both physically and spiritually;
- for Evan’s focus and productivity regarding work for his winter term class;
- for our diligence in personal and family devotions;
- for the Lord to provide wisdom as we survey the landscape of the coming year.
Thank you for joining us in prayer. We would like to pray for you, as well, so please let us know how we can do so!
May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you in the coming year (2 Cor. 13:14).
Soli Deo Gloria,
We have had quite a bit of fun this month! Here is a quick, random run-down of this busy month.
On our anniversary we explored a corn maze with some dear friends who are also Texas transplants! Deere Farms was a good time! After winding our way out of the maze, we tried a (not very authentic, but still delicious) Irish Pub in our neighborhood.
A couple of Sundays ago we went to the seminary to experience Matthew West‘s “Into the Light” tour, which included Sidewalk Prophets and Jason Castro. I’ve always been amazed by Jason Castro’s voice, so it was fun to see him live (and be even more amazed at his God-given talent!).
We experienced our first freeze of the season! In October! Our Texas-bred bodies didn’t know what to make of this. We promptly purchased new winter coats. 🙂
We’ve enjoyed a more varied social calendar this month. We have gathered with many new friends and look forward to the others on our calendar!
I am particularly thankful for a biweekly coffee date I’ve begun keeping with a wonderful friend in the Lord. It’s a joy to connect, share, and pour into one another on a spiritual level!
Finally, I look forward to setting back the clock this weekend! Evan greatly dislikes when it is dark for so much of the day, but I love it! The evenings always seem longer and, therefore, feel more productive. But most importantly, it means that the holiday season is peeking around the corner!
This week I’ve also had the opportunity to catch up with some of my Texas girlfriends! For the rest of my Texan gals: I MISS YOU! Let’s talk soon. 🙂